After getting about five lengthy or at least emotionally full e-mails from my recent ex-boyfriend, we agreed to meet tonight and talk. I'm feeling quite exhausted, physically, and I'm really angry with him. This isn't going to be much fun.
Yesterday I felt like ranting at him - today I just feel sad and still angry. It doesn't matter, in a sense, what we say today. We aren't getting back together - he's just got too much stuff for me to deal with that drags me down. But we have been friends longer than lovers - and I value his friendship a great deal. So, to preserve that friendship, what we say tonight will matter a great deal.
I have no idea in the world how I'm going to deal with this tonight. We're supposed to meet at Barnes & Noble which seems ridiculous to me because it's a public place, and I'll probably start screaming and crying and throwing myself on the floor, kicking my feet and throwing cups and spoons at his silly face and then I'll get thrown out for being an asshole.
Which is not the best way to end a relationship with some one you respect. The whole thing has me very bummed out.
and you know I still love you.