I am wait
ing. I don't know what I am waiting for but my life has been on hold this whole summer. I have not accomplished much. I have little responsibilities
. I am enjoying myself, a bit. But I simply do not feel like doing anything. Even talk
ing to people. I sleep late because I don't know what to do during the day. Then I surf the web and play counterstrike because I don't know what to do during the day
I find myself still missing Katie, but I know it is not her I miss - I just miss being with someone. Oh well. And now I am kicking myself for not taking the relationship as far as she wanted. I didn't want casual sex then, but now I'd take it over nothing. All this happened 6-9 months ago.. I don't know where the months went. I am still waiting for something.