That's OK, (sob) we didn't need you anyway (sob)
Seriously, I know pretty much what you were going through. I wasn't sure I was going to go through with it until I phoned iain from the red phoneboxes on Wardour Street and met him outside at about 4:30.
I wavered between going and not going from 7am right up until actually saying hello to fondue, heyoka, iain and spiregrain (and gnarl who turned up a little later)
I'm very surprised at myself for turning up. Yay for me!
Although if you want to find the courage to join us at a later date, I wouldn't look at the pictures heyoka took of us...