Our afternoon together
in my bedroom seems
an age away. Your smiles vanished my
reticence.
Your lips were rough until i kissed them into softness. Hesitation eroded, sensation was an opening bud in my chest.
You stunned me.
A new year burned into memory.
Friday,
an agony of awkwardness. We're at dinner together, with company ignorant of
our subtext. You, surprised when I grabbed your
knee under the table. Hours later, the rotated equals in your brow.
A punch in my gut when you call me, "
baby".
What is this?
Who are you?
How can you do this to me,
How can you break this frozen sea inside me?
I am terrified.
I want to run until my feet abrade blood into the road. I want to crush myself into
insensibility.
I want oblivion,
I want nothing,
I want you.
Apologies to Kafka for my inelegant theft