sometimes i'm just so numb i don't know where to begin.

i haven't been that depressed lately... upset, yes; depressed, no. so much for that.

coming home from the students for sensible drug policy meeting (which was perfectly okay), i noticed a lot of the depressed thoughts that i used to have. hoping someone would just come out of nowhere, rape me, beat me, assault me, anything. just hurt me, cause me physical pain.

fucking absurd.

(but at least you can understand physical pain.)