I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I'm tired of letting what they say hurt me so much. The
New Year started off terribly. The first hour was spent in my living room listening to my parenta insult me left and right. We all sat in a circle. I gave the idea that everyone should say what they thought of the
previous year and to say what they hoped to see the
following year.
"We all have one single huge problem that we wish we never had in our lifetime, Xochitl, you are my problem."
When I heard this, tears starting running down my face. I couldn't hold them in any more.
I cried while my mom, sister, and aunt laughed.
It hurt. I don't see why they hate me so much? My friends can put up with me, and say my parents over-react. I don't know what my parents want from me. The other night I stayed up til 4 am helping them and woke up at 6:30 to help my dad. I work, I go to school, I clean the house, I wash everyone's clothes.
What more do they want? I'm so tired of it all. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I'm tired of myself.
I'm tired of life. I'm not a bad person. I have a lot of good qualities, they're just hard to find I suppose.