I don’t know what to say. I have a test in C++ in about 12 hours and I don’t know jack. I have spent way too much time on Everything during the past couple weeks, and not enough time on other things, like studying. And even though I realized that I did not have the time to spend, I have spent it noding. This evening, even, I noded when I should have been studying. I have three weeks worth of material to learn in a matter of hours and I am noding? I have all this to learn in a few hours and I am working on my day log?

I know that this is all ridiculous – I have no one to blame but myself. Still, I didn’t realize that Everything could be this addictive. I though my book habit was bad, but books only cost money – they do not take up this much time. And if I had spent the time doing better nodes, I would feel less guilty about it. I have learned what it takes to do a good node, and I manage to pull it off a reasonable percentage of the time, though I would like to do it more often. There have been a few really good nodes, but I just have to wonder if it is worth the time that I have put in on it?

Everything has cut into the amount of time I spend on a lot of other things that I really care about. I have spent less time with my friends, and less time making art, and less time just relaxing. I have received some good from this, but I am just not sure if it is worth it.

This weekend, I am going to see if I can schedule my time so that I can do everything that I enjoy doing. It will mean cutting back a little bit on Everything, spending less time trying to find books, and less time just randomly surfing from node to node.

Hopefully, I can find a way to continue noding at the same rate as I have for the past few weeks. I know that I can’t just cut down a little to save some time. If I can’t figure out how to fit it in my time, I will still node some, a quality node or three a week. I just don’t know if I can find a way to make it all work. Hopefully, I can.