Back home after a week's holiday the shock an enormity of the World Trade Center and Pentagon disasters are finally starting to hit home.

Although I heard about it on the radio, read abut it on my WAP phone and checked it in an Internet café, it's not until I start to watch television and really surfing Internet that I realise what has happened.

Well, to be perfectly true, I still think I don't realise...,

I feel far less productive at work. Everything slooows down. In the evening I go home and start emptying my suit case. Everything is slow. I think about my friends, especially the ones in the US or in the Arab world. In a selfish gesture I hope I don't know anybody of the victims, then I feel embarrased for even thinking that.

I fall asleep in front of CNN not even having eaten my dinner. It's going to be a long cold September.