I went to bed last night and cried. While making love with my husband, I cried. Huge, gut-wrenching sobs. He held me close and loved me hard, and I cried.
I keep thinking about that today. Why did I do that? The sex was good, and I was most certainly in the mood. I really didn't get much satisfaction, though. I guess it wasn't what I needed.
I'm frightened. I've been toying with an idea for a while now. I'm afraid it might be true. After 20 years, I am falling out of love with this man. But he loves me more than ever. How can this be? How can I have let this happen? And how can I do this to my family?