I know where you are,
the top shelf of my innocuous kitchen pantry;
did you think you were sly this time?
I'll always know

I held your cool glass, reminiscing on every moment,
and read your open heart like a book
"Women should not drink alcoholic beverages during pregnancy."
A pregnant pause,
and an easy pop of the bottle, easier than it should have been.

Bitter and burning one second,
warm and comforting the next. It's the
push and pull of it, the Repulsion and the Draw;
R&D; research and development; researching for my lost soul
and the development of a new persona,
a world in which everything works itself out.