To whom it concerns,

I hate polite conversations.I don't know why exactly, but we have been having a lot of conversations that go like this:

". . . So, how are you?"
"I'm good."
pause in conversation
"How are you?"
"Great!! I went to a party last night, it was awesome."
"Wow!! So, that was good then?"
"Yeah, it was good."
awkward silence
"So. . ."
"sooo. . ."

I don't have a problem with silence. I can handle silence. It is when we just start trying to talk without really having anything to say that I get weirded out. I guess it bothers me that there isnt anything to say. . . or that there is something to say that isn't being said. I HATE superficiality.
I want it to stop. I want us to stop pretending like we can talk about the weather and the storm will pass. It isn't going away, it is growing, and when it breaks. .. I would rather be standing with you then wondering how long it is going to be before the wind blows me over.

"So. . .How's the weather?"
"Oh, you know. . ."
"Yeah. Well, it was nice talking to you. . ."
"yeah, it was nice."