Trying to get my priorities right after reading
joes3029's messages in my chatterbox after my
last rant I decided that from
this week on I would be a changed person. That I would focus more on the wheat and cut out the chaff.
I was drunk on no less that 3 occasions in the past week.
Of course the fact that I had my first round of class tests at the end of the week didnt help much. A post-graduation bash and a birthday party
were just some of the reasons for some rather extended drinking sessions. The other days I drank just to get rid of the throbbing pain in the back
of my head. By Thursday evening I was stretched to the point that I swore I would never touch alcohol again.
Not all was bad though.
I finally started reading again.
John Milton,
James Joyce,
Edgar Allan Poe et al have found their way back into my bookshelf. Going through
the pages I now wonder why I stopped reading in the first place ? Sober moments found me studying for the test and so I managed to
scrape by with
decent scores.
Well, guess what ?
Its Saturday night, and I am drunk again. This time the reason cited is the end of the tests. Seems to me that we are on a constant lookout for any petty
reason to go
drink ourselves to oblivion. It is times like these that doubts arise in my mind on the type of company I so lately tend to keep. I have always considered myself a great
judge of
human character. I couldnt have been more
wrong.
Change is inevitable.
Slowly but surely I hope to get back on the track again. If this means making certain changes in my group / lifestyle so be it. I am ready to take
the
risks and face the
trials and tribulations that now lie ahead of me. Rekindle the
dying embers and revive once more the dreams of yesteryears.
Seems now that the throbbing pain was really a warning signal....
It aint over till I say its over.