Well, the official
is months in the past... We've disposed of almost all of his things... His
is properly filed away in case of need... His ashes
are in the bottom of
the side of my wardrobe I never open
And today I went to collect the "personal effects
" he had with him in the car the night he died.
I don't know quite what I was expecting, really. His wallet
, perhaps. A wristwatch
, or the
he died in...
But I did not expect two large brown paper bags filled with the 1/3 of a bottle of
he didn't drink, and the hose he fed the exhaust
into the car with (and
for both, from just before he died.) I didn't expect the tinsnips
he'd used to trim the hose to the right proportions to fit the pipe exactly.
I thought I was collecting the last bits and pieces of his life
Not the instruments of his death