I've held you in my heart
for so long.
Once you were the most precious thing in my life
. You were the thing I woke up for. You were the reason I didn't go to
You were the reason I never got any sex
You were, in all likelihood, the reason I don't have a husband
And on Tuesday...
...I forgot you.
I was cuddling with my lover on my bed, and talking about web-pages.
Mine just isn't very good. So I'm building another.
I listed the people on my page to my Love.
"There's Joy, and Chris, and you, and Ville."
He looked at me.
I couldn't think of you.
I couldn't recall anyone else being there.
Not until he said "beginning with A"
I was so amazed. And aghast. And subtly pleased. I don't quite know why.
I used to sit on my front porch under the wisteria, looking at the sunshine and think about you, sleeping.
I used to know what time it was for you always.
I used to rush home and get online to fall into your delight at seeing me.
I used to know... to feel...
You used to be my life
But... you're not anymore.
Hyvästi sudelmalla, Rakas