Nihilists! Fuck me. I mean, say what you like about the tenets of National Socialism, Dude, at least it's an ethos. --character Walter Sobchak in The Big Lebowski

The last few days (or weeks--I can't tell anymore) have been kinda strange for me. As I've said in other daylogs, my roommates despise me, I can't find a place to live, I hate my job, I have no ambition, etc. And this snowballed--I've been angry at the world, at injustice, at everpresent hypocracy. I've been growing more and more nihilistic every day.

This has led me into a deep depression lately, which has made me a very irrational person. Picking fights, contemplating, um, things I shouldn't contemplate.

And so this is my apology to those of you on E2. I'm sorry I've been unreasonable and irrational. It's my responsibility. I'm even thinking of going back into therapy. But I'm sorry. Hopefully, I'll do better in the future.