Is it all downhill from here?
What now, last night I found myself drinking alone in the moonlight, again. This behavior scares me. I've never been this low before, amd I'm unsure how to deal with it. I went to visit anm and his wife late last night, but when I went home, I went for the vodka. Screwdrivers, until the laundry was done, at which point I was so exhausted that with or without the alcohol I would have gone to sleep immediately.
I find myself keeping friends on standby for nights like this, as what? Justification to drink? Who knows, but it makes me feel better when there is someone else around when I drink, even if they do not imbibe. I don't know where to go from this point...