Ahh, screw it.
I wasn't going to do day logs for a couple of reasons, but it seems it's that that's the best way I express myself, write ups need editing, and I like to blurt things out and call it 'momentary truth'.
In RL, I moderate what I say for a few reasons:
- Not to get stabbed or beaten up (not good at this one either)
- Keep wifey from strangling me in my sleep
- Keep my job (very important and I sometimes lie a little to keep it running smooth)
- Keep family functional
Given the exceptions above, I try to be as blunt as I can, I'm aware people don't think that's the best way to communicate, but that depends on their agenda. (I'm intentionally avoiding psychological reasons, because you people are anal and will tell me that Freud's most recent paper wasn't written in 1936, but was actually discovered recently, in his grave, written 3 years after his apparent death, or something along those lines)
No. 1: people should be who they want to be
me: no, people are morons and you just need to look at FB or Twitter to see that the premise is wrong.
No. 2: people want to express themselves without being ridiculed.
me: yes, I like that too, but if I'm being ridiculous, I hope someone tells me
No. 3: people just want to get along and be loved.
me: sure, that's why we have 7 billion happy people on Earth.
No. 4: people aren't like you and need different approaches.
me: sure, that's why they're in their basement without a job, because real life doesn't bend to their will, and bleeding hearts are helping them stay there. (I'm actually somewhat flexible with this one, but this is a rant, so screw these peeps!)
No. 5: you're old and aren't keeping up with the current generation.
me: probably true, and as soon as we turn into Canada and I have to legally call you by your chosen pronoun of "Your majesty may I suck your dick please" or face going to jail, I'm selling everything and going bush.
Now that that's out of the way, it's been pointed out to me (a few times) that I can be a real asshole and push my agenda despite other people's feelings.
Firstly, let me say, screw you and your feelings.
Secondly, I'd like to point out that I usually have a discussion with my personal morals before I say something offensive and I generally find that an occasional jab in the ribs is good for the immune system.
Thirdly, I used to have control of my emotions, but now that they're loose, I can't always keep track of them.
That's about it.
I've edited this last bit, I was running out of time and rushed this part, it wasn't exactly where I was heading with this log, it's the following day, so I've lost the momentum, but I think it was supposed to be more like "This is me, suck it"