My poor health continues. For the past few weeks I've been eating a diet of liquids (Ensure) and soft foods (scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes, and such). This isn't working - I missed all of last week's classes due to pain and nausea, and this week I've been shot down with a new round of the same problems. These soft foods are getting lodged in my intestinal strictures, so it's time to drop down on the food scale. It's time to go all liquid.

So here I go. Ensure for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Ensure for snacks. Lots of water to drink, maybe a little cranberry juice. For some flavor, there's popsicles. A special treat would be caffeine-free Pepsi.

Not eating is one of the most difficult things I've had to deal with in this illness. Everyone else seems to always be eating when I am not. Food commercials mock me. There are days on liquid diets where I'd take a bite out of my own arm if I knew I wouldn't need it later.

It'll just be for a few weeks, maybe a month or two. Then this whole surgery mess will be over and I can go back to eating my normal diet, plus I might even get back my ability to eat wheat and meat. Now that'll be a treat!