I never
drank. I had like a
sip of
beer when I was
five, and that was all. Even through my first
year of
college, I had still not
drank. Last
fall, I was at a
party with a
ton of my
friends. They were all
drinking all kinds of
everything. At one point during the party I
surprised everyone (I'm into
shock comedy anyway) and
grabbed my
roommate's beer and drank it all at once. Everybody had a
shit fit. They said everything from "I've never seen anybody drink a
cup of beer that fast" to "Oh no, we
corrupted you!" (like it was their
choice...).
Why did I do it? The same
reason I didn't. I had no reason. It was fun at the
time. It was a completely
social thing and made me feel more like part of the party and not so much of a
spectator. I don't really like beer, and I didn't then, so I then proceeded to drink a
lot of different
non-beer things and
nothing was happening. Everyone thought I was like
immune to the effects of
alcohol. It took
so much for me to
feel anything.
What's
weird and kinda
different about my drunken
state? I don't get
stupid. I don't
forget anything. I'm perfectly
conscious the whole time, and I don't
pass out. I have no
hangovers. I
remember everything that happened. The
downfall? I go
blind. Like
comically. My head
spins so much that I can barely
see. It's always a big
joke now at parties with friends when I say "I can't see!" because they know that I've drank a lot.
Drugs?
Fuck no. That's too much of a
loss of control (although I used to say the same about
alcohol). But don't separate yourself from people that do
drugs just because you don't. They're still people. They may or may not be
retarded because of the drugs, but they're still
people.
My
real point here I
guess is that you can't really know what the deal is with drinking or drugs. I had no idea that me being
drunk meant me being
cross-eyed and that I still would have no
desire to do drugs after all this time. I accept the
existence of both, although I must
admit I do sometimes look down on people who do drugs.
Argh! Off
subject again. Here is my
conclusion for real: Do what you want. If you want to
drink, drink. Just don't make it a
problem. Don't let it
control you. Don't let it make you
fall...