a book. a doll. a box full of string
for making jewelry.
I searched behind the pillows.
the curtains. beneath cushions and chairs
until I found them.
"I know what you're looking at."
angel food cake. wine.
peanut butter cookies with too much salt.
we threw handfuls of confetti
that landed in your hair and on the doorstep.
small toys, lined up on the piano
as I played. a flower. a thimble. a green
plastic dinosaur. pictures of places
I'd always wanted to visit.
"I don't know where to go anymore."
We asked for:
a smile. a tear. an evening spent
listening to old music. a moment of
stunning realism during
a conversation at the dinner table.
silence. a stoic expression.
tabletops covered in origami cranes.
A mouthful of teeth for gnashing;
images of God from a distance.