Nirvana's fourth album In Utero was originally titled "I hate myself and I want to die". This track was to be included on the record as well, but was later removed. The track was included on promotional cassette tapes for In Utero. In Utero was released on September 21, 1993 on Geffen Records.

Don't lose hope if you can't get your hands on a promotional copy of In Utero, you can find "I hate myself and want to die" on the first track of the compilation "The Beavis and Butthead Experience".