and life pours its sorrow
cup full and so empty but 
her wrists are bleeding for you
she forgets to tell you that she can't
go on without me or courage
its been so long now but
never long enough to erase memory
i never tried to.. remember you
always meant to let you slip away
temporary thought suggest careful
teeth grinding stillness of broken night

to write to play i'd wanted to
sleep with golden smile
tattoo lust dead giving birth to
intentions, left to own devices
you were always so aching, hurt 
i could not hold hand of 
tortured flailing silence, hidden guise

we did not find ourselves