What is wrong with me? Why the hell am I here.... Why does she keep on saying mean things? They are not mean in themselves but just seem to hurt me. Maybe i'm a fucking wuss. Why does she promise things but always seems to forget or be busy? Why does she find time to be on ICQ to talk to me, or call me on the phone but never see me? Why does she have time to go to parties - parties without me?

Today she said this guys driving was awesome. He did 100 km/h. She told me to slow down yesterday because she was scared. She told me how she wanted a hug and missed me but didn't have time to meet. Why the fuck is she so inconsistent? What is it that I'm doing wrong? ...

More importantly why the hell can't i move on? Is it the sweet voice, her little pretty asian eyes the way she smells, what? WHAT?....argh...fuck this...

In other news... it's 2am now and i gotta work tomorrow at 9. my boss asked me on friday why im "on the internet referring to the E2 IE window. I guess i'll have to see if E2 supports lynx. or w3m.

Very pissed off and depressed MrFurious signing off at 2:09 PST in this nasty, nasty sunday morning.

I just hope then i can laugh about this 10 years from now. Good night.