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My legs are itching like crazy. I only shaved them a little while ago, and they're already driving me insane. No, wait, that not right.. the rest of the world is driving me insane.

Whenever I think about school I get depressed. Really, really depressed. When I'm in school I turn into this self-loathing fake version of myself who pretends to cope with everything. It wears me out and I don't know how much longer I have before it starts to ...

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God damn. I don't know what's gonna happen. I've never felt like this before. Everything feels so hopeless... I wish I could just quit school and move to another province. Start over.

I don't want to be here. I want to be --- I want to be left alone.

I don't want people to expect me to change for them. I don't want them to expect from me at all. I don't want to be forced into making a promise I can't keep... and either way I can't keep this promise.

I can't believe I let myself get into this.

If I told anyone what I really thought, I don't even think they'd care.

"Don't be silly", they'd say.

"That's not what you really think", they'd say.

I've never not wanted to do something so much in my life.