I read the
paper every day, which is probably my first mistake....
Each day I read another story about
violence,
intolerance or corporate
greed. I read as people in some countries die to gain freedoms while people in the
USA give up their own. I watch corporations grow unchecked by the
government. I watch the government go unchecked by the people.
I watch junkies die on the streets while our "
War on Drugs" sends troops to
Columbia to "solve the problem".
I watch adults give up their rights to protect their children.
I watch the
Klan hate the
Catholics hate the
Lesbians hate the
Patriarchy hate the Blacks hate the Klan
I watch
European-americans complain about immigrants.
I watch as companies control people, and people let them.
I watch as a middle-aged mother of two compains about gas prices while she fills up her
Jeep Grand Cherokee.
I watch, disjoined, as my own
mind spirals down the well into absolute loathing for them all.
One Angry Man.
The alrternative, to
disconnect. To put down the paper, turn off the television news, avoid
Slashdot,
yahoo,
CNet, to allow it to go on around me and absorb myself in my world of
perl scripts,
linux servers and
Dungeons & Dragons. Can I do it?
I am so tired. Tired of the
outrage,
anger,
hatred.
Where does an
atheist, whose only faith is in
humankind, turn when humankind has failed him?
How does one have time to fight in a
society that seems to have been engineered to use all of ones time just to make ends meet?
I'm taking a
nap.