After being awake most of the morning, not being able to sleep very well last night, I'm exhausted. Last night I was unable to write much more then idle chit chat so I finished the day horrible day log of yesterday, this morning. Now I get the pleasure of calling several lawyers in hopes of finding one that will work pro bono or is willing to wait quite a while before I pay them a dime. Oh yeah I'm loving life today. . . Not!
I probably won't update this, but ya never know now do ya till it's all just history anyway.

3:11 p.m.
Well what do ya know I did find something more to write about today that I figure will be of amiusement or at the very least semi-enteratining for those of you who actually read these day logs.


Have you ever cried so hard you ended up laughing maniacaly? I managed to do so not once, not twice but three times in a row at the most inconvenient time. I guess I'm a wee bit tense today. A total nervous breakdown would probably feel really good right about now, except I don't think I'm capable of losing control like that. I have tried...this annoying self preservation mechanism, seemingly hard wired into my brain always takes over just when I think maybe I've had enough of this life. It laughs at my weakness telling me whatever the sitaution is it can and probably will get 10 times worse. Then this self defense mechanism digs in and holds it's ground no matter what comes my way. Maybe someday it will fail afterall, I don't know I guess anything is possible.

A Lap Dance Is So Much Better When The Stripper Is Cryin'