10pm Saturday Watching the
Green Mile. Interesting movie.
"To tell the
truth Boss, I don't know much of anything. Never have".
I find that
ironic, as I think back on the
email she sent. You need a healthy dose of dissillusionment-she says to me. I guess so. A
dream defered is like a
raisin in the
sun.
Randy is on the way back with Yusa I presume. Wish I had the
money to get out of here for while, but it's a big
apartment. Wow, good movie. We're all supposed to drive up to
Hartford tomorrow for one of Randy's friends kids bday party. Randy and Yusa are gana roll tomorrow (night I hope). I have no such
desire. I'm
thinking about that 12 rack of
Corona's in the fridge, think it's
time for one. More later
11:20pm
Randy and
Yusa just left, and I finishd the movie. They tried to talk me into going to
The Velvet Lounge, a place I think will feature prominently in my
future, but not tonight. Turned the
TV off, and put on some
Cowboy Junkies and lit some candles. Just me an the little woman,
E2 (grin). It's nice to be alone tonight, I think. When Randy was in the other room, she says to my in her sing song mix of accents:
"Why don't you come? It nice to have another person, talk talk each other."
I said "Nah, you guys need to get to know each other, spend some time".
"yeah yeah, we talk, you my friend. That talk make you miss each other, I no want to
miss."
I can understand that. All too well. That's why I'm here alone. She told us a story of the
Lebanese man with five kids, he had no arms. She gave the kids piggy back rides on the plane. Yusa is a Thai stewardess on Royal Jordanian Airlines. It's cool to see Randy with cool chick, he's had some wacked ones. But that was a long time ago.
"And if it's in your powers please, purge the memories of this place" Cowboy Junkies.
I think of
Florida, of what I'd be doing right now. The change is nice, needed, but it's going so fast..as I drive around this area, I wonder if two years from now I'll be leaving here, leaving a whole new set of
ghosts and
demons and screwed up attempts at
love, a circle of
freaks that I will gather about me, and to
run away again.
God, who knows.
1:57am
Just did a
tarot reading for some
girl in Minnesota on
alt.com chat. She got a kick out of it. Maybe I should buy a
900 number (lol) Six
coronas down and looking hard at number seven. Randy and Yusa aren't back yet..that's right, the bars here in
NY stay open till 4 am. Now that's
civilization. Played
Zelda on my antique
NES for a bit, never did beat that game. I love
saytrday knights at home.