A lot of people I know find their
answers while lying in bed, just a few short moments before they would have fallen
asleep. However, I tend to find them while I am
driving.
It was just
yesterday that I suddenly found myself talking to myself. I was lecturing on the uselessness of my life, my
lack of motivation and my total
disregard for my future. For a moment I could have sworn my
mother was in the car. As it turns out, through angry conversation with myself, in heavy
traffic mind you, I discovered that I am not really
lazy,
I am frightened.
The angry-
tired-of-the-same-old-shit,
Debbie told (or yelled at) the frightened Debbie that it was damn time that she finally made a choice in her life. It's time to be strong, it's time stop letting fear run your life.
I am still not sure exactly what I want from life but I have decided that I will not let the things I want slip right by simply because I am afraid.