I'm sure my teachers told me in high school. I know my parents told me until I moved away to college. Now the dean of students is telling my that it is the reason why I'm not allowed at college anymore. I don't apply myself. My college career is now over because I couldn't get my gpa above 2.0

I don't want to be one of those whiney angst stricken kids, but man, I'm stupid. A 2.0? jebus.

I don't know where to go from here. I have too many people to talk to, my parents, my girlfriend, my brothers. They're all going to flip, especially my girl. Was it the pot? The parties? What killed my desire for work and knowledge? I do want a college education, a silly piece of paper that says "Hey, this guy's smart." I have dreams and goals, will they ever be true? Or do I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself and move on. Get a job then another college. I don't even know if I want to come back to wooster, but I feel that I can't leave behind my brothers or my girl. I don't know what I'd do if I lost my girlfriend...

It's definitely time to smoke up and get these creepy feelings off my shoulders. I need to re-evaluate myself. Maybe it's just because homework isn't fun. But hey, atleast I'm tall