well, more updates on frater shinma's condition...forgive this seemingly pointless occupation of disk space, but i am concerned, and i need to be doing something with my hands.

frater shinma is currently slowly recovering from a lumbar puncture that told us nothing we didn't already know; i.e., it was not viral spinal meningitis. he went to see a neurologist last night, but there's no real news yet, except that he's scheduled for an MRI about a month from now. possibility of a brain tumor, apparently. i'm trying not to think about it. that's my little brother we're talking about. yeah, i admit, there've been times i've wished my brothers would get brain tumors and drop off, but we were younger then, and more easily peeved. but, really, the point here is that i care. i've been working my ass off to make him comfortable, and to do what needs to be done in my life, but it just doesn't feel like enough...not enough time, not enough energy...pushing the limits of human endurance, but perhaps not pushing hard enough.

i'm afraid.