A parent's worst fear

Pacing back and forth,
Wearing a gully in the mud
Thoughts whirl through my mind
Where is he?
Where could he be?
Why hasn’t he called?

Constricting breath
Threatening tears
What if something’s happened?
Images of a fallen child
By the roadside

Tightening heart
Quickening pulse
Where is my child?
Unbidden thoughts appear
Unspeakable pictures

Descending fear
Tightening throat
WHY CAN’T I FIND YOU?
Go away thoughts!
Don’t taunt me!

Gripping hair
Furrowing brows
Anxiety grows
Pacing
Deepening gully
Please!Come home

Safe


My child disappeared today. Fear overwhelmed me. I realized just how vulnerable we are out here. There is no one to lean on. No one to call. We could not find him. We were helpless. I was helpless

When he finally appeared, I just wanted to hug him and not let go. Ever.