Its even worse when you know you should hurt
and you don't.
s you for years. You have nightmare
s riddled with guilt. You start noticing a pattern within that all things which should be shattering
simply have no effect.
I'm not sure if its a self-defense mechanism
kicks in periodically, or if its a switch I turn on and off myself, but sometimes, when I should feel everything
painted with a blue sorrow
, I feel nothing at all.