Its even worse when you know you should hurt and you don't.

It haunts you for years. You have nightmares riddled with guilt. You start noticing a pattern within that all things which should be shattering simply have no effect.

I'm not sure if its a self-defense mechanism my psyche kicks in periodically, or if its a switch I turn on and off myself, but sometimes, when I should feel everything painted with a blue sorrow, I feel nothing at all.