/me raises one eyebrow

I'd just like to point out that this node screams "I needed someone last night, but I didn't call you, or anyone else." Maybe you didn't hear quite right when I said I'd rather be woken up than find out you needed someone and didn't say anything.

Whether you hold me, or anyone else who offered to be there for you, responsible or not, I feel obliged to hold myself responsible. I should have known better. I shouldn't have climbed into bed while you were still online. It's my fault you suffered from your loneliness while I fell unconscious from exhaustion.

I doubt anyone expected to fix the problem that plagues your life, anemotis. I certainly didn't -- I didn't offer that. I offered to listen. I offered a shoulder. I offered a sounding board for all those things bouncing around in your head that keep your eyes open from the strain. I offered to make you smile and forget about your lonely depression, even if just for a few moments. I offered my support, any time, 10 digits away.

Obviously you doubted the truth in my statement, but knowing that you lay awake, with your mind probably racing about that guy (the one who ruined your life but you can't help loving anyways) just hurts. I didn't offer for my own self-edification. I offered because I knew you might, no, I knew you probably would need me, or someone, if not tonight, then tomorrow night, or the night after. It's not something I took lightly.

The fact that you couldn't sleep due to your problems does affect me.
The fact that you didn't think it might worries me.
(and if nobody knows what's going on in your life, least of all you, how do you expect it to get better?)

All that being said, I'm not angry. I'm just hurt, and I needed to say something. (and the fact that you pointed me to this node, even if I wasn't awake, is ironic)