It is winter
. And I am frozen
here, unable to comprehend what is happening or will happen or why I want to cry but simply cannot.
A tree made of bones and sinew and tendons, unable to move with the biting wolf-wind because I am cemented down with ice. My ice. I made it.
To keep people like you out. I don't like you. I don't want you.
I want to grow, blossom into a tree of rose-petals and peridot leaves. And for that I need you. I need thoughts and poetry and rage and hate and love.
Until then, I am a sapling, winter-crippled, whose leaves are drops of new-shed blood.