when i held you i held my tongue first.
when i was inside you, the universe clicked.
i could see it going either way
in every direction—never have i ever been so scared before
& after the glow left me blind to what we almost had.
i never wanted to make you so sad.
all i want is for you to smile at the small things.
something big is in store for you—i could read it in the sparkles on your teeth.
as for me, well . . .