i cannot express my feeling
well.
you had a
key-chain with a silver
gorilla hanging on for your
life.
you
don't know why you never get
a new key-chain but that funny gorilla one.
friends always
make fun of your key chain, but you
don't feel ashamed but rather feel proud of the gorilla.
that
funny, funny silver gorilla.
you have spent most of your time
with it. the gorilla has the keys you have to have to do daily routines.
start the ignition of your car.
open the door for the house.
even a key for your girlfriend's room.
suddenly, you realize that you have
lost it
when you jump on a crowded subway.
the subway's
door has closed and the subway
starts to run, heading to nowhere, carying tons of mindless people.
you
feel lost.
not sad, but lost.
no idea where to go or
where to go back.
..........
that's how i feel. well, kind of.
i'm not sad. i just feel some kind of
emptiness on my heart or on my life.
i guess i have loved her.
so, i wish she will
be happy.