, very sappy, emotional
writing will follow, for those of you not in touch
with this, I'm sorry
, move on now
We all get to that point
in our live
s where its time
to reassess our goals
. I have 14 days of class
es left and then I'm a college graduate
, so if the time
hasn't already passed then it sure has come.
So I ask myself "What do I want from life
comes as quickly as it always has. Never do I hesitate
, nothing has been add
ed or remove
d in longer than I can remember
. Everything else I could ever want, need, or have pales in comparison
. But today, 2:15 in the morning, after a completely uneventful day
, the details suddenly strike
on. I had to get out of bed
and to this computer
to get it out (so beware of my rambling
As always the answer
is, was, and will be that I want a family
and always attached to that, even though I hate
that it has to be a thought, is that I want to be able to support this family
in a life style equal
or better to what I've had.
This isn't too much
to ask for, is it? It’s funny
that I only know one
who shares this goal
awash in their monetary goal
s and wants to travel
and on and on. Don't get me wrong
, I'd love to have all the things that everyone strives for, but it all comes in a far second
To me this has always seemed like a very vague
and foggy goal
to strive for, but as I was lying in bed
and the vale of mist
was lifted from my eye
s. What's coming next is going to sound like the most sappy, disgusting, ridiculous crap
ever, but let me tell you, its 100% the truth
for better of worse from anyone’s point of view
And here it is: I was about to list for you the qualities of the wife
that have become clear
to me, but these are just my opinions and you can form your own. Lets set aside the attractive
(to me not to society
, able to always talk to, tell the truth
to, speak your mind
to, blah, blah, blah, stuff and get right
down to what you (not just me, don't kid yourself) really need. Everyone needs some one they can cry
with. I can't think of anything that is a better sign
of how close you are with someone.
First off, FUCK
men don't cry. The most moving, powerful thing I have ever seen was my Father
and Uncle cry
ing. Nothing compares to that. Second, cry
ing is a wonderful
thing. It, laughing and extreme
physical exertion are the three best stress
reliefs in the world
. Also, there is nothing better to show how you are feeling.
As I read back through this I
- can't believe I just wrote this.
- refuse to change one word of it.
- can just think about how this will be taken by you the reader.
- notice the number of spelling errors I have to fix.
- hope some of you feel the same way I do.
- wonder why I didn't just type this for myself; locally.
- wonder, ultimately, what I'm going to do about all this.
all and I hope that you all get what you want from life