The Field Where I Died
Glen Morgan and James Wong
One of my favorite episodes.
is standing in a field of tall grass holding two very old black and white
pictures. One of a soldier
and one of a young woman of the same time. The picture of the woman is torn in half. Mulder speaks in a voice over:
"I, too, have spent a life the sages' way and tread once more familiar paths. Perchance I perished in an arrogant self-reliance an
age ago... and in that act, a prayer for one more chance went up so earnest, so... instinct with better light let in by death that life
was blotted out not so completely... but scattered wrecks enough of it to remain dim memories... as now... when seems once
more... the goal in sight again.
The story shows what happened before this point:
, once the site of a Civil War battle, is now the home of the Temple of
the Seven Stars, a doomsday religious cult that believes in reincarnation
. A member
named "Sidney" calls the FBI
with accusations of child abuse and weapons stockpiling.
Fearing another Waco or Jonestown, the BATF and the FBI lead a joint raid on the
. No weapons are found. Neither is Vernon Ephesian, the cult's dangerously
, who dominates his followers with a mix of Biblical prophecy, New
channeling and old-fashioned intimidation.
An odd compulsion
leads Mulder to search a nearby field where he finds an
underground Civil War bunker
concealing Ephesian and his six wives--all on the verge
of committing mass suicide. One of the wives, Melissa, catches Mulder's attention. She
feels somehow familiar to him. Ephesian, his wives and the cultists are taken into
. But with no evidence of abuse
or illegal weapons
, the FBI can hold them for
only one day. Mulder and Scully are assigned to interrogate
Ephesian and his wives.
Preaching fire and brimstone
, Ephesian admits nothing.
is a different story. Under questioning, this withdrawn and hostile girl suddenly
shifts personalities into the mysterious informant
Sidney, a gruff male New Yorker
somehow Mulder knows Melissa's case is even more unusual than Multiple Personality
. He is certain that "Sidney" is one of Melissa's past lives.
Scully, who has a hard enough time with MPD let alone reincarnation
, can't understand
why Mulder is so obsessed with Melissa, and so certain he is right.
Then comes a revelation
that surprises even Mulder. Melissa shifts into yet another
identity: a Civil War nurse
named Sarah Kavanaugh. She tells them she watched as her
fiancee Sullivan Biddle died in the aftermath
of the long-ago battle. And that Biddle is
one of Mulder's past lives. Mulder unconditionally
believes her. Desperate to discover
the truth...Mulder has himself regressed.
Scully listens as Mulder cycles through a series of his past lives. He says that same souls
together over and over again: he, Samantha
, even the
are destined to play out many lifetimes together. Melissa and
Mulder are soulmates...fated always to be star-crossed lovers
The current Melissa hears Mulder's story, but she won't allow herself to believe. She
returns to Ephesian. Scully doesn't know what to think--especially when she discovers
photographs of Sarah and Sullivan in historical archives
After Ephesian and his cultists are released, everyone's worst fears come true. Ephesian
leads the cult in a mass suicide
. Mulder discovers the body of Melissa...clutching the
photograph of Sarah Kavanaugh in her hand.
Mulder -- "I, too, have spent a life the sages' way and tread once more familiar paths. Perchance I perished
in an arrogant self-reliance an
age ago... and in that act, a prayer for one more chance went up so earnest
, so... instinct with better light let in by death that life
was blotted out not so completely... but scattered wrecks
enough of it to remain dim memories... as now... when seems once
more... the goal in sight again."
Scully -- "You didn't even have the courage to tell Skinner
what you really believe... that Melissa Riedal is being invaded by
her past-life incarnations."
Mulder -- "Because he wouldn't believe me."
Scully -- "I don't believe that you feel responsible
for those fifty lives... or Melissa Riedal. You are only responsible to
(talking to Mulder, who is under hypnosis
) -- "I want you to go into your past, beyond your life as Fox Mulder
... What do you see?"
Mulder -- "Ghetto streets
... shattered glass... bodies of the dead... I'm a woman... a Jewish woman
. My son is with
me. He is Samantha."
Therapist -- "Samantha? I thought Samantha was your sister."
Mulder -- "In this life, she is my son. I see my father. He's dead in the street. He is Scully... But now... he's gone on now... waiting for us. The souls
... come back together... different... but always together... again and again
... to learn. I can't go to my father. Gestapo is standing next to him. An officer... he's Cancer Man
... evil returns as evil
... But love... love... souls mate eternal... my... husband... is taken away from me. To the camps. He is Melissa. We're always taken away. I'm rising... I'm rising now... I'm rising now... high above... my body. Above the field
. My face is bloody
. Near the bunker... the federals are gone... my sergeant is also dead. He is Scully. Sarah holds me. She is sad. She is Melissa. She lives... near... the battle... Hamilton County
... her name is Kavanaugh. Sarah Kavanaugh... And my name... is Sullivan Biddle. She doesn't know... she doesn't know... that, that I'm waiting for her... that we will live again. We will live again. Oh, God... oh, my soul is tired."
Mulder -- "Dana, if, um... early in the four years we've been working together... an event occurred that suggested
somebody told you that... we'd been friends together in other lifetimes
... always... wouldn't it have changed some of the ways we looked at one another?"
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