I can’t understand how people have as much apathy
as they do. I wish that I could stop caring about things
. The casual
attitudes towards learn
, and hundreds of other things amaze me. It's not even that the people have convinced themselves that they shouldn't care
, they just never had the thought
in their little heads
that they should.
Although it means that I'm a good, caring person and all that, it is a real pain in the ass to be bothered by things that other people could give a rat's ass about.
I hear about some tragedy on the news and I can't just forget about it five minutes later, I think about how I would feel if it happened to me and how the people must feel. There is plenty of opportunity for walking around in my town and I am shocked at the number of cars that would rather hit a pedestrian than give them the right of way. Even the typical driver who cuts you off-other people just get mad, but me-I'm sitting there mad but also wondering if maybe they were lost and just found out they needed to turn or something.
I think the biggest shocker is high school. At least at mine, the students take it all for granted. They treat this free education as if it were a joke. They don't care when teachers genuinly make an effort, they don't want to become learned people, and grades are something to be casually bargained for (in many non-advanced classes). The people with no-brainer classes get the schedule they asked for, but those who are challenging themselves have a hell of a time because each class is only offered once or twice. Procrastination often means for others that they just won't do the project, essay, or whatever. I can't just not care. I would lay awake and not be able to sleep if I knew that I had an important assignment about to be blown off.
While the people who just don't care are stupid and missing out on things, I can't help but envy them. They get twice the sleep I do when a project is due. They get to wherever they're going faster, don't feel bad thinking about a story of a person they'll never know, and in general aren't as stressed. But for some reason I still care. Ah, well.