A true story by Derf
Published by Derfcity Comics

Spoilers follow.

This comic is about Jeffrey Dahmer before he became a serial killer. This is a comic about what he was like in high school, written in the first person by someone who knew him.

The comics were written over a long period of time, with Derf eventually publishing this book ten years after Dahmer’s capture. He self-published the book because none of the presses would touch it.

His introduction to the book is personal and painful, a warning to pay attention to what they failed to see at Revere high school in Ohio, where Dahmer ceased to function as a human being. He talks about Dahmer as a tragic figure, the one among thousands of kids who are bullied and picked on who is driven over the edge.

Derf chronicles Dahmer’s evolution from a picked-on child to a lonely geek to a substance-abusing adolescent ignored by everyone around him. He talks about watching Dahmer’s increasing obsession with death and dismemberment in a way that makes you share his shock and discomfort, but that also shows how easily his behavior was dismissed. His perspective is that of one of the geeks who encouraged Dahmer to act out, taking him to public places to freak out for money as a strange form of performance art, about one of his friends running into Dahmer around the time he made his first human kill. Along with his retrospective on the guilty pleasures of getting Dahmer to freak out, he talks about his own wariness around Dahmer, and makes it plain that Dahmer could probably have been helped, with his substance abuse problems, with his socialization problems, with the possibility of trouble at home, if someone had been paying attention. The comic makes clear that the real horror is not the monster but the negligence that created the monster, a theme made more real by Derf’s own guilt and disappointment.

So once upon a time, there was this guy named Jeffrey Dahmer. Maybe you've heard of him? Back in 1991, he got caught trying to abduct a guy in Milwaukee, and police found a human head in his refrigerator, along with human remains stored in barrels and various severed body parts scattered around his apartment. He's one of the most notorious serial killers in history.

Back in '91, there was an editorial cartoonist called Derf Backderf working for a paper in Cleveland. His wife, also a reporter at the paper, calls him, tells him about this serial killer they've arrested in Milwaukee, and drops a bomb on him -- Backderf graduated from high school with the guy.

So Backderf spent a few years wrestling with the fact that he was friends with a future serial killer and eventually decided to exorcise those demons by creating a graphic novel. So after doing a ton of research, he published "My Friend Dahmer" in 2012 (an expansion of a single-issue version Backderf published a decade earlier), a retelling of his interactions as a teenager with this weird kid who everyone laughed at and no one really understood.

Backderf and his circle of friends discovered Dahmer after he'd started impersonating a person with cerebral palsy and throwing fake epilectic fits to get attention. Dahmer was a stone freak, but his antics were amusing in the juvenile way we all enjoy when we're in high school, and they encouraged him as much as they could, even calling themselves the "Dahmer Fan Club." Backderf remembers him as a really strange kid, sometimes disturbing, usually harmless, often depressing. He drank heavily in high school -- a fact that a number of students were aware of, but that every teacher apparently missed. He hid beer and hard liquor around the school grounds so he'd always be able to sneak out and find something to drink.

Ultimately, it's a sympathetic portrait of Dahmer. Not to say that it's entirely Dahmer-positive -- Backderf says more than once that Dahmer is a kid he feels tremendous sympathy and empathy for -- but that sympathy vanishes when he finally crosses the line into murder.

Backderf knew Dahmer as a sad, strange kid who had to deal with parents in the middle of a very nasty divorce who were struggling through their own mental health issues. Dahmer wanted attention, like a lot of kids. He was darkly funny, like a lot of kids. He was conflicted when he realized he was gay, like a lot of kids. Of course, not a lot of kids also realize they're necrophiliacs and have to struggle with urges to do violence to others. But even then, Backderf recognizes that Dahmer went through a very stressful high school career and kept himself together the best he could -- admittedly with huge doses of alcohol -- until after graduation.

Backderf says more than once that he thinks Jeff Dahmer, the mentally ill teenager, could have been saved if only the adults in his life, including his parents and teachers, had paid closer attention to him and cared enough to get involved. We'll never know for sure, of course, but that doesn't do anything to make this book any less fascinating. Or disturbing.

This is a pretty thick book, and I burned through it as fast as I could, including the section in the back detailing Backderf's research and notes. Backderf's writing about Dahmer is captivating and humanizing in all the best ways -- this isn't something that glorifies a serial killer, but instead asks us to look at how the serial killer was created, at Dahmer's depressingly rotten youth, at all the ways this kid was failed by the grownups who were supposed to be helping him.

The setting is also pretty great -- Revere High School in West Allis, Ohio in the mid- to late-1970s is an excellent backdrop for all of this to happen. Locked-down schools, zero tolerance, and No Child Left Behind were 20-30 years in the future, and the book is both stereotypically '70s-ish and timeless at the same time -- we've all felt this way about school, we've all been freaked out by our adolescent hormones, we've all wondered whether we'd survive to get out of school and wondered what happened to the people we used to hang with.

This isn't a traditional horror story. If you read it hoping for blood and gore and psycho killer mayhem, you're going to be very disappointed. This is the horror of how one person can go from being a pretty normal kid to the kind of lunatic who'd kill 17 people.

Reading this book made me think a lot about all the people I knew in junior high and high school who were the Class Freaks. If I'm being honest with myself, I think there's a really good chance that I was one of the Class Freaks myself. And we've all known the Class Freaks at our own schools -- the kids who don't fit in, the kids with weird senses of humor, who just aren't sociable enough, who looked funny and were easy to target. Of course, most of the Class Freaks graduate, mellow out, get responsible jobs, and get normal families. Jeffrey Dahmer -- and his 17 victims -- had the bad luck to be the exception that proves the rule.


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