I have fallen in love in a way entirely new to me. It is
spectacular. I recorded that there
is no conflict of interest a while ago...
Something between us led us together... divine will? Sexiness?
Randomness? I'll never know. We had both just recieved gifts (caritas)
at a church event, and we then relaxed while some music played. She lay
down on the floor, next to where I was sitting. I recognized this. I have
done this, trying to get someone to do something like kiss me... the desire
was rather vague. Anyway, I held her hand. This made an impression.
Hugs ensued at later points, and indeed had begun before this, but i think
that the hand-holding was the catalyst. Anyway, it felt really good. We
hugged and leaned against each other and danced together (better than any passionate kiss) and held hands
all weekend. We love each other (I know my own feelings, and she told me
about hers). Yet, we want to be close friends forever rather than boyfriend
and girlfriend, ever. No, that is not just her thought and endorsed by me
because I want all I can get. We're happy because of our love, and we (at
least I, and she has hinted that she) need little or no physicality to be
My ego is flying waaaaaaaaaaay up there in the stars, and I am working
to elevate hers. I think I am succeeding...