Okay. So this time it's not just words, you know. This time it is in my gut. If I could show you a picture of the way it was twisted, you would know what I meant. Still, try to see it like I say.

My heart is like a scared rabbit. Hopping erratically. No. My eyes suddenly scrunched up and wet, trying to get a clearer image in my head. No. My hands clenched around a pathetic piece of paper, crumpled because I am trying to hold on to something nowhere near this room.

No. I mean a whole damn wave, exactly like they say it, a beautiful cliched wave of longing. I did not really believe these waves existed but they do. I just felt one.