I've found some more things that trigger me.
In addition to certain roads in the Atlanta area, the standard ringtone on an LG phone, and seeing the things she brought back from the hospital, I can't watch any jail scenes on television involving women, and the sight of children following a teacher or camp counsellor in a line made me have to lean against a wall. My spouse really doesn't understand this, she's fine and so forth, and I feel horrible that she's over it and moving on and I'm clearly very emotionally troubled by reminders.
There was a lot to process in that time period, but one of the things that got to me was seeing children institutionalized for suicidal, self-harming, or drug addiction. I'm not talking 15 year old mopey emo types, I'm talking about 5 and 6 year olds, who have to be put in a place where they only get crayons to write with, and can't have jump ropes. Walking out of my first allowed visitation, in which I practically fell apart - I passed a line of children being drill-sergeanted down a hallway to get dinner in a cafeteria. Seeing a group of kids being herded down a similar corridor in the YMCA brought it all back.
Anyway, in other news - does anyone remember when you could just buy a product?
I was in a food store the other day, and the first question was did I have a member card. No. Oh, OK. Would you like one. No. Fair enough, (rings everything up) did you want to donate $2 to feed the children. No. Press the button there saying "No", then. How about $1 to children's literacy? No. Press the button there saying "No" then. Okay, that's your total (receipt the length of the average tie prints out) OK here's a coupon, and a survey and if you take it and fill it out and call the number here you get a 1/10,000 chance to win a $5 gift certificate. You'll need this rebate form to get $5 back on that pan, and add the UPC sticker from the back of the label to it and post it.
But that's NOTHING compared to buying a bed, for God's sake.
I thought I was buying a car. There were that many "sign here", "and here", "and here", "and here", "and here to decline the coverage, I think it's a really good idea to spend money for the extended warranty on that mattress." Then I had to sign something yes, deliver the thing on the 4th.
On Tuesday I was phoned, to confirm, PLEASE CONFIRM RIGHT AWAY OR YOUR DELIVERY WILL BE POSTPONED. I confirmed. "Thank you for your confirmation". Wednesday. "PLEASE CONFIRM THAT YOUR DELIVERY ON THE 4TH IS ACCEPTABLE, DO IT RIGHT NOW OR YOUR DELIVERY WILL BE POSTPONED." Thursday: "WE WILL BE AT YOUR LOCATION BETWEEN 11:15 and 3:15 PM. PLEASE CONFIRM YOU WILL BE THERE. DO IT RIGHT NOW OR YOUR DELIVERY.." Confirm. Six phone calls on my phone "You need to call us before 8pm or we will postpone your delivery..."
Can someone please tell these people what the word "CONFIRM" means?