curled up in a ball of inadequacy, staring off
into a universe that does nothing but make me
so terribly sad sometimes.
i didn't mean to hurt anyone.
i don't mean to disappoint everyone, it just happens.
yes i want to do something with my life,
i just don't know what that something is.. yet.
give me time?
"no matter where you are,
i can still hear you
when you drown.." and i am..
drowning. spluttering. arms no longer flailing because
i am weak.
stop watching me like that, i could swear..
you think your cruelty is so beautiful
don't hold my head under water,
i'll sink on my own.
why didn't you teach me how to swim? i'm learning.
don't flaunt your fleet
when i can barely keep
my punctured life boat
afloat in the troubled
waters off the coast of
my dreamland, nightmares
that seem more like reality
every time i..
close your eyes. the storm, it came up strong.. i think i could.. i love you.
my world melts when it meets with yours and
i am left in blissful alternate reality that
might just be my only truth.
or the only one that keeps me here.