Left Chicago. Drove through Ohio. The shades and tree’d underbrush reminding me of space, of trips when I was younger, of California and roads and the fogginess of travel – dizzy from so much motion. Quit starbucks on Tuesday. Making it distant – becoming a stranger to them and Chicago and being no one but a traveler – something between running from and chasing after – not a wanderer, but wondered by world and woman and the weight of a clear lens. Would wish true
Christina and me in the pool. Tickled by shivers. Tinkering…
Bathing suit drips in the corner of the room – wrote Lilly a letter, completed Juliette
Teeth sore – need dental insurance – Headache all day – especially in the pool – I attributed this to caffeine withdraw – cigarettes don’t help – chlorine in my eyes – there must be a way to infuse every waking moment with glory – to be infused – made 470+ miles – said goodbye to Jane last night – we spent the afternoon together – went loft looking with Josh & Gene in the morning – first Saturday outside of starbucks I can remember – lots of traffic & people – ate breakfast at the Melrose – good time – have been feeling increasingly good in my body and mood since I left el Grande Café. Zac told me to keep in touch, ‘Something is gonna happen’ he said to me on the street corner, I felt melancholy, he told me to take off for a while – I think I just might.