This sucks. David hates me. My best friend is a guy who I adore, too much. I love him, and he knows it. I love him as a friend, and a boyfriend. I would never want him and David to break up, because they would both be in pain.. But I can't stand watching them kiss, and cuddle. My life has been so full lately, yet so empty. I feel the void. It is a horrible feeling, like I am a bystander in my own life. I have no idea where I am going.