Well today was a day of
emotional battery. I don't know if it's just the way things are intended to be or if some
monumental screw up on my behalf caused it.
Two people I care about more than
anything or everything2 have been totally
bashing the crap out of me today. I'm pretty sure its not
intentional but it still hurts.
Its gotten to the point that I don't know what to do. I'm trying my hardest but they don't seem to care about me. If I say something its met with
immediate disgust and
automatically rejected. All my
thoughts,
actions and
ideas are
crushed. Its hard to maintain
hope in a situation like this. As of right now i'm faced with the prospect of living
alone in all aspects of the word. I don't wish to control anyone but it's hard to live in a world between
love and hate and alot easier to live on either end. As it stands the love end is in a questionable state and in desperate need of help but I don't believe it can be repared.