I made two New Year resolutions. One is coming across, one is looking sillier and sillier in retrospect.
But today, I want to make a new resolution: when I wake up, I wake up. so it shall be written, so it shall be done.
Yesterday I woke up at 6 AM, rolled around in bed, took care of my body sewage system, wasted time here and there and sit down at 6:30 and worked. On day job stuff I'd otherwise procrastinate until it was too late. And by 7:30 I had done most of what I had to do for the day, so I went to the office early so I could leave early without reprise.
Today I woke up at 4:30 AM and said "man, this is much too early", and made all sorts of effort to go back to sleep. Which I did, and then I woke up at 10:30, dazed and knew the entire day would be ruined by this brain fog. And it was. Other than a few Anki deck reviews, I got no work – paid or personal - done.
As someone cursed by bipolar disorder, I should be very mindful of consistent sleep schedules. But you know? Screw this. I'm already on heavy medication -- lithium and lamotrigine -- which already fuck up with my ability to male a mark on the world.