went to drink with
ai, whom i truly loved for the first time, and her boyfriend.
talked about my second person whom i truly love.
well,
-g. had gone and i left
oly about two weeks ago.
so, it's
over.
i talked about the process and what had happened.
what she said, what i said, how she touched, how i touched, why i thought it's worth to do it, why i think it didn't work, why i love her and such.
ai said loving me made her feel guilty. that was exactly what
-g. said to me.
ai recommend me not to hung out with those
cheap model-wannabes. she said
i should face what i did. think and analize it without being
cynical nor being a
pimp.
i know it. i told her i cannot be alone now because it's too hard.
'
that's bull. you deserve it.'
this is what she said. though i don't want to agree with her, i have to agree with her.
i loved
ai because she was
a bad ass bitch. i love
-g. because she is
the best bad ass bitch.
i'm drunk now and i'm mumbling shit again. i should stop
this 'cause it's almost 2 a.m.
tomorrow, i need to wake up at six 'cause it's my first day at work.