What exactly have I become
Wait, I was or was not ever something or else this
A futile semantic retrace or two

1

You've gone and found yourself
Lost in Wonderland.
Isn't it grand?

Its only half as imaginary
Just maybe
Two times as scary
Than what we'd planned.

Smell the forest and the sea
Run your toes through the sand
Feels real, at least to me.

You've only got
yourself to blame
if things get out of hand.

2

angry with someone
for doing something

I would likely do myself
is given to a strange aspect

a stray bears teeth
at those who pass

vision changes
and appears
a fog

an object
a distance off
is felt

restless
in my own city
entirely

I am an addict
as I see myself

the addict finds again
the streets of his own city

a city which perhaps
he
I

have allowed
to decay

isolated and quiet
the streets

are an easy home
the addict prefers

the night to the day
the light of the sun is cold

at night the humidity and
character of the air

are felt by the throat
the sidewalk

offers less resistance

Nothing is Any Good if Other People like It